mugenmine | He was surprised how calm he was at that moment...

Ah notebook. How I loved you. Our time has come to a close but you will not be forgotten. I'll probably have to refer to you quite a bit as you hold tons of notes for my current story, then I will put you away... Someplace safe...

:-)

Yup, last word went in. I was looking through this thing and it's chroniciled my wee history writing in the fandom. It starts with: He was surprised how calm he was at that moment... (yeah that doesn't even sound like a frickin complete sentence...) (It's from this really crap FOD thing I tried to write after spending too much time on the meme.) The meme does really overwhelm you at the start. It's like OMG! I had no idea these things existed! Thankfully it did calm down after awhile and days of smut consumption... But the good thing about that crap story was that it made me realize what voice I wanted to write in. I wrote, from Sherlock's, Moran's, Moriarty's and then John's POV and then I wrote the rest of the story in John's POV and even though the story was an epic fail, I found a POV I wanted to work more in, so that's something good I suppose :-) I also realized that I really don't want to do Sherlock POV, my God I have no idea how to tackle that one...

So today on the stairwell I crammed in the final line, "I think we've gone beyond 'it isn't real', don't you think?" A line which I've already trashed and thrown away in my head so well that was a bit of a bleh way to end... but something like that may or may not end up in the current story.

What's cool about looking back I think is just seeing the crazytown thought process behind things. I found lines I used verbatim and then stuff where I was like, wow that ended up REALLY differently. I have all my notes for Das Boot and ASiF and I found my first attempt at trying out "a deduction" which was total crap and some lyrics to a Japanese song I wanted to do at my birthday karaoke, which they didn't have and I was so pissed as I had memorized every line of that song!! I also have the post it notes about my stories that I keep on my computer monitor at work and then transfer to the notebook once the story has finished. Just try it co-workers, you'll never break my code!

Mostly folks just wanted to know what "Fuck You I Won a BAFTA" meant. I think I got it down to. "Martin Freeman said it. It makes me laugh...."

The first couple of times it went like this:

Co-worker (looks at the notebook, confused.): So did you win a BAFTA?

Me: (laughing): No I did not win a BAFTA.

Him: (pause) What’s a BAFTA?

Me: Well, it’s like the British Oscars.

Him: Oh… (then screams) FUCK YOU I WON A BAFTA!

Me: (thumbs up)

So now I will break out the shiny new Moriarty version and get to town. I broke it in by perhaps writing the very end of Top Gear. Though I have my beta's voice in my head telling me, "You know you can't end it like this..." Ah it will need some work...

Thank you notebook....