I was caught in the act... +550

[mugenmine]

Top Gear
Day 9
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So after my morning meeting my co-worker came up to me.

Chris:  Hey, were you at the corner of 1st and X at around 9AM?
Me: Um... I'm not sure...
Chris:  Writing in a notebook?
Me: Oh yeah, that was definitely me...

Ah! he caught me, I think I had just crossed the street or I was waiting for a stoplight on my way to work and this character dynamic change idea came to me, so I busted out the notebook and wrote down my idea... I can't sit on that stuff. It's too ephemeral. I can't afford to not get it down or I'll lose it. 

Last night after my slog, I puttered around my home muttering to myself... This isn't working, why isn't this working????...  Because it just wasn't. I was still mucking around with the dynamic of my three characters. I moved the pieces again. Swapped Adler's position in a scene with Sherlock, and it worked a little better... The story started slowing down and it was all starting to get moody, which is a telltale sign that I've gone too far OOC with John or my story is just not going to fit the characters.  Just because I come up with a plan or an outline does not mean that it will last.  9 out of 10 times it doesn't.  But for this to move forward I realized I had to change once again how John is reacting in this story. And for that to seem true (to me) I had to change a lot of shit around. So I slept on it and dedicated my walk to work  to mulling over my story dilemma.

My co-worker caught me on the corner of 1st and X at the moment things started to fall into place. But as they did, large chunks of things and plans that I was hoping to write began to fall out of place.  A big scene I wanted to write between John and Mr. Adler went out of the window because well in this AU, Sherlock wouldn't have left John in that situation and no matter how badly I wanted to write this exchange, if it doesn't fit the story it's gotta leave... OUT!!! So now the exchange is with someone else and it will still work, albeit very differently... and who the hell knows, by the end of this, this whole damn scene might be gutted.... I cut out a transition scene as well. I'm so changeable! 

But I've written more of the ending in the notebook, so when I actually GET to the end, I can just transcribe a lot of stuff over... And I came up an idea I want to try. Not sure, but I really want to do it. I just can't tell if it's veering too much into the absurd... Might work, I have a question mark next to the idea so I'll write it out and see. But if it does, I'd love to have this thread running through the series.  I have a few I'm trying to establish...shit that will be in every fic... help to tie it all into one AU...

Well once again, didn't get to the Doctor!John talk, maybe tomorrow... I'm probabaly 2/3rds done with scene 2.... first draft, then there's one-ish more long scene that's all Johnlock, so that will hopefully get me back in my groove. 

I went back and read through my whole blog for the month and a half I wrote Das Boot, and it was funny how hopeful I was in the beginning, that the story I started out with was the one I would end with, and then three fucking rewrites happened.... So this time I'm expecting to be beaten soundly before this one will see the light of day...

Hrm, my cousin is coming to stay with me Thursday-Monday... Am I a horrible person for worrying how this will affect my writing schedule?  I need my routine... I really do... AAAAND I just remembered that I was supposed to be babysitting one of our systems for work until 11PM AND it's 1:22AM.... Let's hope nothing has melted down...(Whew, nothing broke down!)  Yeay!

Comments

[fantomeq.livejournal.com]

Oh good, glad you weren't "caught-caught," as in somebody at work reading it! :) I carry a little notebook around in my purse all the time. I used to do a voice recorder but felt self-conscious about it.

I need my routine too. Best of luck with the visitor.

[mugenmine.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I'm sure things will work out and I can always write when she goes to bed... Routines are important things... I get so cranky when they are disrupted... :-) A voice recorder sounds good, but my god mine would be so dirty.... LOL